If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading – Lao Tzu
Sometimes we make decisions based on rational grounds, ignoring what our instinct tells us, the head overruling the heart. At the beginning of this year I accepted extra hours in the main practice. I tried to convince myself that I could do this, but my heart wasn’t in it. I knew that I wouldn’t enjoy the work and it was 6 full days a week, leaving me with just Sundays off, but under the circumstances I felt I couldn’t refuse the position. A serious mistake, as it turned out.
Weighed down with responsibilities and never enough time to do the work, no matter how many hours I put in, I pushed myself on, depleting all my energy in the process. Time was a race and I was losing. Finally, my body took over and pulled me up.
Now, I am home and for the first time in months I don’t have to do anything. At some point I will have to think about picking up the reins again, but for the moment it’s enough to simply be.